YOU
You, of all people, i never expected you to betray me this way and i'm so fucking disappointed in you. You may think i'm over it but i'm so NOT OVER IT. You are one of the many reasons for my insomnia and i thought i have always been observant with people, have good foresight but this time, i was so damn wrong and i should have listen to people who have warn me about you.
It all started with you and Caesar's saga. I am so god damn tired of listening to you both whine, complain and saying wana break up then patch up! How long has it been going on and its seriously getting annoying, everyone knew YOU KNEW dat he doesn't love you and treats you like shit but you still hanged on no matter wat and chose to believe him. This was one of the reasons why i didnt wana tell you straight on dat night when he was hitting on Fel because i gave him face since it was supposedly to be a fun night out, i knew you'll probably won't believe me, and you'll be brainwashed by him after seeing him manipulate you with his fingers for so many times. Just how many times have we been hearing you complain dat he's adding girls, hitting on them, flirting with them, secretly talking to them and etc. He was hitting on everyone ard you including your close friends, including me and Fel. Everyone who are close to you hated him and are sick of the breakup/patchup nonsense. Stop saying its love and you can't help it, love isn't like dat and i know you don't love him and dat you cant live without him, in fact you will live so much better without him.
I chose to tell you the truth after you major "breakup" because you said you wanted to break up no matter wat, since he scolded vuglarities at you and cared of his camera more than you, even so, you somehow defended him and said he seem to have change after the time he got caught flirting around, i felt the need to let you know dat he's still being an ass so i risked my ass to tell you the truth. Let me refresh your mind on wat had happened.
For the whole freaking night, i was singing MJ's I'll be there, the very next day, he immediately sent me a song when he saw me logged online, bugging me non-stop to go listen it. I was busy with work but eventually, i heard it, honestly he sounded like crap but i held back my laughter and told him it was okay. He started going on abt me influencing him coz i sang it all night long, i found it quite weird and so decided to pop the question, "its for rachie ah?"He said yah but until now, i would like to know, has he sent you this cover song already? If he did, ok dat i have nth to say.
Secondly, yes Fel was high and we were all somehow intoxicated with alcohol, he tried to act all heroic and wanted protect her so he started being touchy with her, i got so annoyed coz you were there and he got even more touchy when you weren't around. Me and June had to drag her away frm him so many times while we were walking to the toilet. I got so annoyed dat i told him ITS OKAY, WE CAN TAKE CARE OF HER and pulled her away from him, in case you were wandering, her hands weren't all over him, she just couldn't walk straight and he kept trying to hold on to her waist/hand and tried to make her head lean against his chest, even June felt dat he wasn't acting like a guy who has a gf. When we were in the toilet, i screamed and scolded Fel so dat she could sober up, which she did and she started crying and apologising for not taking care of herself, June sobered up as well. We sat outside the Zouk toilet, you came and sat beside Fel and he told you to get up so dat he could sit beside and her "take care" of her, how come we don't see him being so heroic when you were drunk/high? He said he treated me and Fel like older sisters and we are close but c'mon, till dat day, he didn't even have her hp number and after dat night, he got her number from you and started texting and msning her random weird stuff. We all knew how hard he tries to be a player, saying things like "i think you will make a great gf and if i'm not with Rachie, i will seriously chase you", "if you start being more lady-like, guys will come flocking to you" and the list goes on.
I thought we've talked about this and cleared things up, i even apologize thinking fine since you felt dat it was all a misunderstanding and defended him. I asked you why are you always finding excuses to make yourself stay and you gave me all sorts of reasons. You said you took a week's off to think through of who you should believe but it was darn obvious dat you chose to believe to his sweet nothings/promises/excuses because YOU WERE STAYING AT HIS PLACE THE WHOLE FREAKING WEEK so wat abt thinking things through? Shrew dat shit seriously. After dat saga, we stopped talking as much but every time we spoke to one another, it seemed alright at least to me, it seemed okay. Then one fine day, i read Carrie's blog post and casually asked whether she was referring to me. I knew very well you told her shit and then she came to talk to me online. She then said she was unhappy with me and will speak to me when i get back from BKK , i wondered to myself wat could she be unhappy about, we didn't even met up nor spoke to one another for such a long time. I asked you about it and you said you knew she was unhappy with me YET YOU ACTED AS THO NOTHING HAPPENED AND KEPT ME IN E DARK, of coz i got unhappy and told you i don't see why she has to give me a teaser trailer and wait till i get back from BKK. Then you TOLD her again (i dunno wat else you said), she got pissed and msn me again, saying its a problem between me, you, her, kenny kang and caesar. I seriously went WTF? And all this time, you acted as tho like you were okay with me and all. Close friends? Yeah right.
Carrie wanted to do a conference call so we did, she started raising her voice, being all angry while i went ?????? and you just kept quiet the whole time. When it was your turn to talk, you started stumbling on your words. Then she went around the bush and i was being framed as a mean ass bitch whose a 2 headed snake and loves to blow things up making them more animated. She said i was judgemental after her night of mayhem and said things about her, things like "i think Carrie's starting to dress skimpily because of Kenny" and "i can forsake my friendship with Carrie". WTF? If i've remember correctly, YOU said such things about her, YOU talked, commented and agreed things about her and many times YOU SPOKE OF HER and we all knew dat those were just casual talk that weren't meant to hurt or upset anyone. I weren't dat close to her afterall and since you guys are such close friends since sec sch days, YOU told me many things abt her whether they were nice or nasty stuff which i dunno of. There were witnesses who have heard you said things abt Carrie and there were people who said things abt her as well but of all people, you just named me out. You know how much she cares about wat people think of her and i seriously can't blame her for being angry. I tried to explain but she thinks i was trying to be defensive and i was really confused by wat was going on but more likely i felt really betrayed and disappointed. I kept quiet because you guys been close friends for the longest time and since she was so angry and stubborn, she wouldn't listen nor believe me.
About her sacrificing everything for Kenny was a known fact and i said dat i can forsake my friendship with her coz i was angry. If you remembered, you quarrelled with her after her night of mayhem and you complained to me. As a close friend, i got angry too after reading Carrie's blog post about you. But ended up, i was the one who confronted Carrie when you were the one who was complaining and got so upset with her and just coz you aren't confrontational. After i spoke to her for 2 freaking hours, i called you up immediately to clear things up btween you both till 4am even tho i had class at 9am later in the day. And about Kenny asking me to go waxing with me, it was so happen dat you were online when he chatted with me and i just found the question funny so i copied and pasted it to you, it was not meant to imply anything but just purely for laughter. You told her parts of the story but not the entire story thus it worsen the misunderstanding between me and Carrie, you didn't explain to her under wat kind of circumstances i made those statements. You know wat, I seriously felt like a big stab on the back coz i never thought dat history would repeat itself and i trusted you so much, i told you all my secrets, was always there for you, always lending you a listening ear whenever you wana whine or complain. Carrie MIA-ed for so freaking long before dat major quarrel and of coz she doesn't know anything and everything dat was happening. She was already unhappy coz she felt i was being insensitive as a friend and since i knew she's a control freak who gets jealous over everything dat goes near Kenny Kang, i should have kept my distance from him even tho he was darn playful and always disturb me. Since you were unhappy over dat incident and you're probably thinking i'm trying to break you and Caesar apart or trying to animate things. I thought we talked about it and cleared things up but you were still unhappy and "unconfrontational" (i heard this reason too many times) so you found out dat Carrie was unhappy with me so you decided to tell her shit which caused the misunderstandings between me n her and you were probably thinking at least you have someone to defend you yet you're not the person who does the confronting. WHY? ALL THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE OF DAT MOTHERFUCKER. I asked myself why did you do this?
And i finally got an answer. You were unhappy with me over dat lame ass incident and then you found out me n caesar's very early msn convo abt me commenting dat i feel dat he's more like a friend than you. But pls, i already told you before dat i didn't like you initially because you were always talking abt yourself and how much of a hot babe you are. But after getting to know you further and you were changing, we got closer and i even defended you everytime Caesar starts complaining abt you. The things dat you said you were unhappy about in the phone, were things dat we have already talked about and cleared up. And if you realize, everyone started disliking everyone all because of YOUR MOUTH. If you've stop whining and complaining about everyone or everything, all these misunderstandings wouldn't happen. Like how we hated Caesar so much, how you and YC & gang quarrelled and the misunderstanding between me and Carrie. I knew all along that you have feather lips after you blurted out so many secrets of others infront of the crowd but i never expected such betrayal.
So PLS! Stop trying to make yourself feel better by msning me, leaving comments in my fb or smsing me as tho you really care for me as a close friend. Stop telling me you miss those times dat we spent. Don't tell me you love me coz you're so damn selfish and only love yourself and no one else. Stop acting like you're damn victimize or pathetic and get people to sympathize, defend or side you all the time. Stop thinking dat Caesar loves you coz he don't and neither do you so stop being dumb. I seriously regret trusting you, believing dat you're a dear close friend of mine but i was wrong. The damage done this time round was far too severe and i can never trust you again. So quit being fake with me. Carrie will find out the truth sooner or later and i will never stoop as low as you because i believe in karma. So if you wana go around, bitching about me to everyone be my guest coz i don't fucking care anymore.
It all started with you and Caesar's saga. I am so god damn tired of listening to you both whine, complain and saying wana break up then patch up! How long has it been going on and its seriously getting annoying, everyone knew YOU KNEW dat he doesn't love you and treats you like shit but you still hanged on no matter wat and chose to believe him. This was one of the reasons why i didnt wana tell you straight on dat night when he was hitting on Fel because i gave him face since it was supposedly to be a fun night out, i knew you'll probably won't believe me, and you'll be brainwashed by him after seeing him manipulate you with his fingers for so many times. Just how many times have we been hearing you complain dat he's adding girls, hitting on them, flirting with them, secretly talking to them and etc. He was hitting on everyone ard you including your close friends, including me and Fel. Everyone who are close to you hated him and are sick of the breakup/patchup nonsense. Stop saying its love and you can't help it, love isn't like dat and i know you don't love him and dat you cant live without him, in fact you will live so much better without him.
I chose to tell you the truth after you major "breakup" because you said you wanted to break up no matter wat, since he scolded vuglarities at you and cared of his camera more than you, even so, you somehow defended him and said he seem to have change after the time he got caught flirting around, i felt the need to let you know dat he's still being an ass so i risked my ass to tell you the truth. Let me refresh your mind on wat had happened.
For the whole freaking night, i was singing MJ's I'll be there, the very next day, he immediately sent me a song when he saw me logged online, bugging me non-stop to go listen it. I was busy with work but eventually, i heard it, honestly he sounded like crap but i held back my laughter and told him it was okay. He started going on abt me influencing him coz i sang it all night long, i found it quite weird and so decided to pop the question, "its for rachie ah?"He said yah but until now, i would like to know, has he sent you this cover song already? If he did, ok dat i have nth to say.
Secondly, yes Fel was high and we were all somehow intoxicated with alcohol, he tried to act all heroic and wanted protect her so he started being touchy with her, i got so annoyed coz you were there and he got even more touchy when you weren't around. Me and June had to drag her away frm him so many times while we were walking to the toilet. I got so annoyed dat i told him ITS OKAY, WE CAN TAKE CARE OF HER and pulled her away from him, in case you were wandering, her hands weren't all over him, she just couldn't walk straight and he kept trying to hold on to her waist/hand and tried to make her head lean against his chest, even June felt dat he wasn't acting like a guy who has a gf. When we were in the toilet, i screamed and scolded Fel so dat she could sober up, which she did and she started crying and apologising for not taking care of herself, June sobered up as well. We sat outside the Zouk toilet, you came and sat beside Fel and he told you to get up so dat he could sit beside and her "take care" of her, how come we don't see him being so heroic when you were drunk/high? He said he treated me and Fel like older sisters and we are close but c'mon, till dat day, he didn't even have her hp number and after dat night, he got her number from you and started texting and msning her random weird stuff. We all knew how hard he tries to be a player, saying things like "i think you will make a great gf and if i'm not with Rachie, i will seriously chase you", "if you start being more lady-like, guys will come flocking to you" and the list goes on.
I thought we've talked about this and cleared things up, i even apologize thinking fine since you felt dat it was all a misunderstanding and defended him. I asked you why are you always finding excuses to make yourself stay and you gave me all sorts of reasons. You said you took a week's off to think through of who you should believe but it was darn obvious dat you chose to believe to his sweet nothings/promises/excuses because YOU WERE STAYING AT HIS PLACE THE WHOLE FREAKING WEEK so wat abt thinking things through? Shrew dat shit seriously. After dat saga, we stopped talking as much but every time we spoke to one another, it seemed alright at least to me, it seemed okay. Then one fine day, i read Carrie's blog post and casually asked whether she was referring to me. I knew very well you told her shit and then she came to talk to me online. She then said she was unhappy with me and will speak to me when i get back from BKK , i wondered to myself wat could she be unhappy about, we didn't even met up nor spoke to one another for such a long time. I asked you about it and you said you knew she was unhappy with me YET YOU ACTED AS THO NOTHING HAPPENED AND KEPT ME IN E DARK, of coz i got unhappy and told you i don't see why she has to give me a teaser trailer and wait till i get back from BKK. Then you TOLD her again (i dunno wat else you said), she got pissed and msn me again, saying its a problem between me, you, her, kenny kang and caesar. I seriously went WTF? And all this time, you acted as tho like you were okay with me and all. Close friends? Yeah right.
Carrie wanted to do a conference call so we did, she started raising her voice, being all angry while i went ?????? and you just kept quiet the whole time. When it was your turn to talk, you started stumbling on your words. Then she went around the bush and i was being framed as a mean ass bitch whose a 2 headed snake and loves to blow things up making them more animated. She said i was judgemental after her night of mayhem and said things about her, things like "i think Carrie's starting to dress skimpily because of Kenny" and "i can forsake my friendship with Carrie". WTF? If i've remember correctly, YOU said such things about her, YOU talked, commented and agreed things about her and many times YOU SPOKE OF HER and we all knew dat those were just casual talk that weren't meant to hurt or upset anyone. I weren't dat close to her afterall and since you guys are such close friends since sec sch days, YOU told me many things abt her whether they were nice or nasty stuff which i dunno of. There were witnesses who have heard you said things abt Carrie and there were people who said things abt her as well but of all people, you just named me out. You know how much she cares about wat people think of her and i seriously can't blame her for being angry. I tried to explain but she thinks i was trying to be defensive and i was really confused by wat was going on but more likely i felt really betrayed and disappointed. I kept quiet because you guys been close friends for the longest time and since she was so angry and stubborn, she wouldn't listen nor believe me.
About her sacrificing everything for Kenny was a known fact and i said dat i can forsake my friendship with her coz i was angry. If you remembered, you quarrelled with her after her night of mayhem and you complained to me. As a close friend, i got angry too after reading Carrie's blog post about you. But ended up, i was the one who confronted Carrie when you were the one who was complaining and got so upset with her and just coz you aren't confrontational. After i spoke to her for 2 freaking hours, i called you up immediately to clear things up btween you both till 4am even tho i had class at 9am later in the day. And about Kenny asking me to go waxing with me, it was so happen dat you were online when he chatted with me and i just found the question funny so i copied and pasted it to you, it was not meant to imply anything but just purely for laughter. You told her parts of the story but not the entire story thus it worsen the misunderstanding between me and Carrie, you didn't explain to her under wat kind of circumstances i made those statements. You know wat, I seriously felt like a big stab on the back coz i never thought dat history would repeat itself and i trusted you so much, i told you all my secrets, was always there for you, always lending you a listening ear whenever you wana whine or complain. Carrie MIA-ed for so freaking long before dat major quarrel and of coz she doesn't know anything and everything dat was happening. She was already unhappy coz she felt i was being insensitive as a friend and since i knew she's a control freak who gets jealous over everything dat goes near Kenny Kang, i should have kept my distance from him even tho he was darn playful and always disturb me. Since you were unhappy over dat incident and you're probably thinking i'm trying to break you and Caesar apart or trying to animate things. I thought we talked about it and cleared things up but you were still unhappy and "unconfrontational" (i heard this reason too many times) so you found out dat Carrie was unhappy with me so you decided to tell her shit which caused the misunderstandings between me n her and you were probably thinking at least you have someone to defend you yet you're not the person who does the confronting. WHY? ALL THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE OF DAT MOTHERFUCKER. I asked myself why did you do this?
And i finally got an answer. You were unhappy with me over dat lame ass incident and then you found out me n caesar's very early msn convo abt me commenting dat i feel dat he's more like a friend than you. But pls, i already told you before dat i didn't like you initially because you were always talking abt yourself and how much of a hot babe you are. But after getting to know you further and you were changing, we got closer and i even defended you everytime Caesar starts complaining abt you. The things dat you said you were unhappy about in the phone, were things dat we have already talked about and cleared up. And if you realize, everyone started disliking everyone all because of YOUR MOUTH. If you've stop whining and complaining about everyone or everything, all these misunderstandings wouldn't happen. Like how we hated Caesar so much, how you and YC & gang quarrelled and the misunderstanding between me and Carrie. I knew all along that you have feather lips after you blurted out so many secrets of others infront of the crowd but i never expected such betrayal.
So PLS! Stop trying to make yourself feel better by msning me, leaving comments in my fb or smsing me as tho you really care for me as a close friend. Stop telling me you miss those times dat we spent. Don't tell me you love me coz you're so damn selfish and only love yourself and no one else. Stop acting like you're damn victimize or pathetic and get people to sympathize, defend or side you all the time. Stop thinking dat Caesar loves you coz he don't and neither do you so stop being dumb. I seriously regret trusting you, believing dat you're a dear close friend of mine but i was wrong. The damage done this time round was far too severe and i can never trust you again. So quit being fake with me. Carrie will find out the truth sooner or later and i will never stoop as low as you because i believe in karma. So if you wana go around, bitching about me to everyone be my guest coz i don't fucking care anymore.
